hello..just want to share something..feeling like relapse come again.fear!

as mention before a new semester begin.And i feel so happy to meet my friend back in my campus.Going to lecture everyday,doing assesment is become my daily routine as a students.Currently i still under my medication that is lexapro and clonazepam.The medicine is proven to heal my anxiety and panic symptomps.I was so glad that my fear,anxiety and so on did not attack me as frequent as when i was in my previous semester.Last week i had seen my doctors ,and she told me since my symptoms had showed a positive signs to rocover,she told me to reduce my clonazepam intake from 2 tab per day,to 1 tablet ,and then to 1/2 tablet  and then stop slowly the intake of this medicine..So i follow her order ,but after 2-3 days without clonezepam ,my panic continue to attack me back.Im in phobia right now,but whenever the panic came,i still can control myself thanks to several self help books which had give many tips to me to deal with such situation.But what is going on my mind,until when this problem will continue to attack me?haa...And i had identified that my main trigger factors that caused me to panic is when i was in crowded places or wide places suck as shopping mall,airport terminal...I still remember when i was on holiday in Hong Kong last 3 weeks,i was attack with panic when i walked through the airport terminal..The terminal was so wide and long when i walked across it to reach my airplane.And justnow,i just went to my local supermarket and it also was a wide places,again panic attack me.What was make me happy,is that this semester i can really handle with stress to compare with previous semester.Maybe i should credited to my pyschotherapist,to my classmates,,to my parents,friends,family members,to my fellow bloggers and also to several self help book writers for give me advise ,support and tips on how to get deal with stressor events.But what is bothering me now is my fear to the wide places.I really have no ideas about this,i had tried many things from medicine,pyschotherapy,counslelling but it come to attack and attack..

new semester and follow up with my doctors

Helloooooo friends.How are you?As mention before the new semester begin last week.And i totallt do not have enough time to update my blog.For the beggining of the semester,what i can say is awesome.I meet with my old classmates.And this semester i was appointed as a class leader .There is many works that i need to do that is assesment.Its normal as college student to to our assigment that was assigned by our lecturers.This semester,all my lecturers are very rigid and so strict.But i take it as challange for me to study harder.Yeah,there is no more panic,anxiety!!that what can i tell.The condition is totally different from previous semester where my panic always come attack me without any reasons.I so happy right now.And yesterday i just went for a check up with my doctor at one of hospitals in kuala lumpur and he asked me to continue with my medications and asked me to reduce my rivotril dosage because it make me feel so sleepy.And what makes me happy is one of the doctor there will take me as a patient for cbt therapy session for free of charge..yeah.So i got a medical leave for two days..and now i want to go back to my campus because tomorrow morning ,i have economic classes and this weekend i need to do an assigment for politics subjects because the deadline is on monday.so pray for me,that is my hope from all of you.thank you..with love!!!

new hope,new journey,new semester.Pray for me

During last semester i had a difficulties to overcome with my fear,panic,anxiety and so on..It totally effect my academics and my life quality.Even during the classes ,my panic attack me without any reason.Fortunately,semester break begin and i feel it is is the most best time for me to meet someone who can help me.Then on last april,i went to see a doctor and had undergone several psychotherapist session with clinical psychologist.And i am now under medication.After 2 month on holiday,the new semester will begin tomorrow.I quite confidence that my conditions is quite good enough and i strongly believe that anxiety,and so on will not attack me again..I had enjoyed my semester holiday with many activities.Meeting with friends,playing sports,watching cinema,reading,karaoke,and of course going for a short vacation last week to Hong Kong.And my life as student will continue tomorrow.I have no option.to be success in future,i must study hard.My journey is still far away and i am still young.There is another 3 years of average for me to get my first class of degree.I really hope that this semester and the next day ,i will face it smoothly..Its is challange for me.Now i will leaving home and going back to my campus..Going for classes will be my daily routine after this.My hope is that all of you will pray for me,i really want to make my parents proud.My ambition i want my parents too see me during my graduation day.As son,that is only i can pay and that is the only way to make them proud of me.To be a better person in future..Last word,thanks to all who have been supporting me during my treatment especially to my doctor,dr aida and of course dr khairi rahman.I also want to thanks to my new friends +Nelly N.  who have helping me to give ideas on what to share on my blog and also to +Sheri Jacobson ,a psychologist from harley theraphy based on london.Even with didint meet face to face,but all of them help me a lot..Yeah new journey,new breath and new hope begin..wish me luck.love u all from bottom of my heart.Of course will update again.Till we see again friends.take care and have a nice day.god bless you

what a tiring day!a new semester will begin soon.anxiety start.Anyone?need advise and support

The semester break will end soon and new semester will begin next week..Ahh,i am so lazy  to going back to my campus.Today is most tiring day ever,after 2 month on semester break i visit to my campus for a while.My purpose to going there is to get an entry pass for my vehicle to enter the campus area and also to visit my new rental house.I didn't know why,my feelings start to changed when i entered my campus area.Something that i cant described and so subjective.Maybe i am not fully prepared to enter the new semester.Last semester is the most worse semester ever,i always develop panic attacks,i cant adapt with stress,i really cant handle with it..ahh.People call me as a careless person .My cgpa also drop .Then when the holiday begin,i fell quite happy.No more classes,no more assesment,no more test and others..Ahh .The feelings are so ,i cant describe it.So,as mention before ,i had gone for a psychotherapy session and also meet a psychatrist and my condition  since past 2 month is quite good.I am feeling so happy now.But i quite afraid then anxiety,panic will attack me again when the semester open soon..My biggest hope is that the medicine that doctor prescribed me will reduce my anxiety and fear levels..Amin.I didn't know why.This feelings always came to me when the new semester will coming.I hope also this semester will better than the past.I want to start a new lifestyle,think positive.I will try and try and try.I would not stop from trying.ever.My journey is still far away and i am still young..I know i must face all this challange .Ok thats all,i hope somebody will give support and advise to me.Its almost 1.00 am in my places and bye.till we meet again in my next post and also thanks for mental health bloglist for listng my blog in their sites.I feel so happy to hear that...Take care people.This life is ours.enjoy your day.

Hong Kong and China Tour 2013.

I just back from a short visit to Hong Kong and The city of Shenzhen China.I am feel so happy with this vacation.I departed to Hong Kong on last 26 mei from Kuala Lumpur International Airport.During the first day,our tour guide bring us to visit the famous wax museum maddame taussaueds.Wow,im feel so excited where my dream to meet many popular icons become true even it is fake..I manage to take pictures with many celebrities,politician,sport icons and many more...so here are the pictures

                                                 
Haha above my picture with the royal familes..On the the next day,i and my travel groupmates spent the wholeday at the Hong Kong Disneyland Park.In asia,there is only two disneyland here,one at Hong Kong and the other one at Japan....But i think this park is  more suitable for children under 12 years old.Ive been to Universal Studios at Singapore and Universal Studios is better than disneyland.Then on the 3rd day,we continue our journey to the city of Shenzhen ,China.The 4th largest city in China after Beijing,Shanghai and Guangzhou.It is a great city..The tour guide brought us to the famous Louhu Mall,where we can find anything from gadgets,shoes at a reasonable price.Then on 4rth day,we continue to discover Shenzhen..and went to the Wonder of the world park..I believe many people didnt ever heard about this theme park.This park is similar with a legoland concept.Inside the park,there are many model of famous buldings all over the world including the great paris eifeel tower,the pyramid giza and even the pentagon and the white house bulding.

Finally after 5 days there,we went back to Kuala Lumpur and fly back with Malaysia Airlines.What can i described is it is a very nice place and i will never forget this moment of vacations.But in China the government block their citizens from using the social media including twitter,facebook and so on.I dont know why and have no ideas about this.But what i want to say,i am feel so happy right now.Bye.will update again.