The most toughest semester.Bad feelings come!

  Hello readers,yeah finally i have a time to update my blog. Now i just entered a new semester which is semester 5 and the last year of my study in my campus. The first week just ended with a busy routine, as told before i hold a position as student representative at my college.  What can i say, my daily routine is so packed with classes during the day and meeting at the night. Sometimes i must attended an event organised at my campus.
 
 According to seniors , this is the most toughest semester during our study. So from that word, i start to feel anxious , anxiety begin ,i am keep questioning to myselves ,how i would balance my routine as a student rep and also a student?this semester there is so many assesments. I must do a research,creating a short film, create an advertisments and also must conducted an event.

 My anxious level increase ,when this semester i will be a project leader for a project under my faculty. Yeah,it its very tough for me. Sometimes, this anxious feeling will create a panic attacks sometimes. Bad feelings come.. I worried many things,

  But instead of that, i really enjoyed and have fun with what i am doing now. It change my life a ot. But the problem is there is many negative thought that come into my mind, i know is is only false cognitive that always play into my mind and i strongly believe i can change this cognitive into positive.

 Readers, i was keep questioning on myselves, how the great world leader like Barack Obama can balance between their works and other things? It still become a question for me until now. I really envied with their achievement on how they can manage their time well.

  Well indeed,maybe your ideas and advice is very important to me and i hope i can be like them.Have a nice day ahead !

Psyschotherapy, let raise the awareness!

   In this year, i had undergone psychotherapy session with two of consultant psychologist. Yes, until today what can i say is this session is very good for thus who had a problem. Unfortunately i believe many people outside there did not know and even heard about this especially in the remote areas.

  In my place for example, many people did not know about this therapy and the counselling services is just available in the urban areas. Nowadays, in the era of globalisation, many people work under stress conditions, thus many of them suffer depression ,anxiety and other related problems . For thus who fail to managing stress properly,It will cause many catastrophic consequences.Today we can see,the rate of suicide is increase, drugs abuse involving youth underage.

 We cannot blame them at all, thus it is the role of the professional to overcome this issues. Yes i have an experiences of myself, i suffer from anxiety and panic disorder and today with the help of many profesional  out there. i had recover a lot.

 After going several session, my interest to psychology increase. Seriously after going for cbt, i started to learn a lot about psychology. I start to read, buy books about motivation and yeah maybe one days i will become a psychologist consultant. This suddenly came into my mind .

 Thats why i create this blog with the advice from my counsellor. Through blogging,i had find many people who suffering many problems who need a help. Yeah, after i get my first class of degree, maybe i will continue my studies in counselling and psychology fields.

  Seriously, i respected to those psychotherapist out there who had contribute a lot for the mankind. It is not an easy job to listen and help people all the time. And i hope one day, i will join and become part of them!

CBT session during holiday and beggining of new semester

  Hello there, currently it is almost 6 week im on my semester break and this means that this is the last week of my holiday. I will go back to my campus this monday to continue my responsbility as a students. For this new semester, this will be my 5th of semester and i just have another one semester before get my diploma.  Okay i just want to share about CBT,cognitive behaviour therapy. This therapy is one of therapy under the psychotherapy which will conducted by a proffesional consisting psychatiarist, clinical psychologist,licensed counsellor and others. Basically,this is among the treatment for thus who are suffering from anxiety,depression and other related disorder.

 During the end of last semester,i get a phone call from a psychatiarist from the hospital on which i get my treatment now. Then when the holidays begin, we meet immediately and at first stage,he do the beggining assesment into me. Then after that, we meet about 5 times to discuss about my problem during this session.

  So after this i will go back to my campus, and we will meet again for next discussion when im free. In conclusion, from what i get from this session is i understand more about anxiety and panic attacks. In the meeting,he teach me many things from the basic concept of anxiety and also the cycle of panic attacks. Yes,all praise to god,until today i begin to practiced one of the exercise that included in ths session. Its is called as cognitive restructuring.

  I had heard this before, but not applied it in my life. So in this excersice i need to record my thought in a thought diaries. I must record into it,if my moods is unstable and i have a strong emotional feelings. Basically,in this exercise it will help us to understand our thought and feelings. I so enjoyed doing that.Yes,if u are interested more ,you can just search via google and type cognitive restructuring.

 Ok i will start my new semester, i hope all of u can pray the best for me ,so that this semester will go smoothly without any obstacles.Of course will update again ,much love.

Perfect vacation.

  Hello there,it almost 5 week i am on my semester break and it is one week left before i continue back my studies and entered my 5th semester of study. In this holiday,there is so many things i had do. I had spent my time with my family,hangout with friends,reading,play sport and recent i just came back from my short vacation to the Republic of South Korea.

  Before this,i had been to many places and country such as Singapore, Hong Kong and China. What can i described Korea is the best country i had ever been. The people are very very friendly and there is many interesting places for the tourist for sightseeing. What can i described is in this country there is so many beautiful places that can be visited. This country is unique because it has four seasons and now it is autumn.I hope i will come back to this beautiful country one day. Below are some photo that i took during the visit.

    Just now, i just finished reading books entitled 100 ways to motivate yourself by steve chandler,the man

behind the success of "reiventing" yourself books, and i find the books is so perfect to change our thinking from pessimist into optimistic. I hope i can and could apply all the ways i had read in my real life. Tommorow i will continue my CBT session with my private counsellor at Kuala Lumpur and i hope i can gain something new in the session tomorrow. One week left before new semester open, i am ready for my next semester. In my plan,in this weekend i want to bring my family for having dinner in hotels and i will fly an boeing 737 simulator in Kuala Lumpur.

  Dear all, lets we move on,build a new life,set a new goal. May happiness will always belong to us. Of course will write again. Much love 

 Haziq Umar

Lets change the bad habit!

    After two weeks holiday begins, as told before boredom hit me and i spend most of the time before this by sleeping until the noon. So finally i had realized that this is a waste of time and i should spend my time during this holiday by doing something that is positive and healthier.

  Yeah, after two days i managed to change it slowly by play sports at the evening. Yesterday i managed to cycle at my house area. Before that, i downloaded an apps at my phone to detect the duration,the direction and also the speed of my cycle. Yeah,by doing this only i have a motivation to cycle. Then the results was miracle. Before this, if i was cycling, i will start tired only a few moments when i start cycle. Yesterday,i managed to cycle about 20 minutes. As i cycle, i visualise myself as neil amstrong ,haha and yeah i can feel the fresh air during cycling. As i feel the air, i start to take a deep breath during cycle. Its was totally make me happy.

   Just now,in the evening also ,i and my friend spend about one and half hour to play a badminton in the real court. It began, when there is two women beside our courts who invited one from group to join and play with them . So i oferred myself and played with them ,during that time i  keep and keep visualise myself as a great badminton player, eventhough i am not good enough in badminton, but i was quite happy because i won the games just now. After finish the games,they asked about myself and i also asked the background of them. Yeah,its a great day. First, i enjoy play badminton and second i manage to make new friends. How awesome this life.

   Tomorrow i plan after perform the prayer at the noon,i want to visited my grandfather who was admitted to the hospital which is the same hospital where i get the treatment for my conditions. Then at the evening, i plan to go for the gym,to workout to make my body like Muhammad Ali.

   Readers, during my school time, i  was a pessimist thinker. All in my mind is always negative . When i entered the college, i managed to change my thought to get more optimist and more optimist which is until today i cant believe i can transform it. Dear my friends,the happiness is in your hand. Just do whatever you want to do. Just enjoy the life,forget the stress because this lives is ours.

Reality during holiday!

  Well, on this holiday,i sometimes fell boring because my days is always unproductive. I just stayed at home. Online, Reading, Watching TV, Hangout with friends,dinner with families is become my daily routine. Sometimes, I overslept until noon .But start from yesterday i realized that this is should not happen. I must change this bad habits,

  I believe that college students out there have a same feelings with me when there is sem break. When in college,we always complaint why there is no holiday. We imagine and dreaming to do many things during holiday   . Shopping,vacations,bla bla bla but when holiday come,nothing happens. Most of students spend their holiday by sleeping and doing nothing at home and then complain to their friend there are feel bored. Hahaha. damn true.

  In fact, this reality had been shown in 9gags website. But instead of that after doing some self reflection, i should not waste my time during holiday. So as the beggining, i decided to continue my hobby that is reading. I start to find a books in my nearest bookstore last week. I spend about an hour at the bookstore just to find out a good self help books for me to read until i found one book written by Steve Chandler, "100 ways to Motivated Yourself". After read it, it is a perfect books. Fantastic and beneficial to read it.

  I also want to spend this golden time to spend with my family as i can,with my friend,jogging karaoke,go for movies. And what make me excited is that i will travel to Seoul, South Korea next week. Rima Rudner in his books said that "Go for vacation at least once a year,because it can make your lifespan longer" i believe her word.
 
  Oh,one things to shared that i still continue my treatment with speacalist and currently undergoing CBT  session with one of psychatarist at UKM Medical Center,Kuala Lumpur and still on going with my medication. Well my situation is improved better from day to day,and i hope it will continue forever.

  It's almost a long time i did not communicate with London well known pyschotherapist +Sheri Jacobson . I just want to share here that almost everyday my sleep was disturbed by a bad dreams sometimes horror. Sometimes i meet ghost,sometime i dream that my family will died. I have no idea about this and how to overcome it. Out of control. I sometimes search the internet that Kaverian,a herbs is among the traditional remedies that can help promote sleep well. Is that True?

  Well ,hope to see u guys again in my next post and have a great day ahead.Thanks for reading and love you guys to the moon and back!

And finally !!

   

   Well hello there, i am so happy,so excited,the feelings inside me is like, agh Speechless. Guess what,my semester break is officially start from now. Now it is time for me to enjoy,to relax and to rest before the upcoming semester begin.  My busy schedule as a student represantative almost forget me that i have my own blog. Haha. Its almost 4 weeks i did not update anything on my blog.

   So, the this semester break is just begin and the new semester will open in 26th of November.How time fast flying. I totally did not have any time to update my blogs. Assigments,presentations,test,final examination,meeting with other student rep members. All of this become my daily routine that become obstacle for me to update this blog continously.

  What i can said,with the status as the newly appointed of student rep at my faculty,one words that i can said "TIRED". With almost everyday on the weekdays,we have a meeting,we also will conduct and organised all events for the students in my campus.Yeah,i believe if i ask every great world leaders,i believe that all of them,have a same opinion with me. Yeah,its normal as a leader we have many works to do,many things that need to be done. And i really enjoyed it, evendough it is totally make me exchausted. And i am very sure that by become the student leader,i will have as many experience i can,i can learn on how to be a great leader. So it is beneficial for me,to bring into the future.

   All praise to god also,that i can answer my final examination smoothly without no fear,no panics,no anxiety anymore to be compared to previous semester.Now i am just waiting for the result. Okey my second year of my study is done and there is about three years left before i can hold my first bachelor degree. What can i said that this semester is went well! credited to all who have supported me from behind.

   Okay, lets forget about my study for a while. I just want to said that duruing this holiday,i want to do as many benificial things as i can. I will never wasting this golden time for me to enjoy ,to rest with my family. To have fun and to hang out with my bestfriends. To play with my pets,jogging and go to the gym,reading self esteem books and of course blogging.

   Dear my readers who still struggling with your mental problems,i am here for you. I am ready to help you,to share my experience as i can. Just be strong,keep calm.Will update later,of course.Love.

  

New life.Student rep.College life

 Hey ,hello there. I think that its almost 5 weeks i did not update my blogs.Sorry it is due to my busy schedule as a college students. Guess what? from now i am officialy being appointed as a student rep at my college. Basically i hold a portfolio as an exco for the werfare of the students.

 Yes, it is very tired to hold a new responsbility. To be the leader among others. But i dont care,as long as i enjoy to do this work and to take as many experience as i can to applied it in the future. Almost every night in a week days i and my other teammates will have a meeting and discussion together in order for the future of all students in our place. Okey,i really enjoyed my new job and take this as a new experience and learning process.

  Okey, lets talk about my final examination.Now is week 14,that's mean next week is the final examianation.Yeah and my paper will end at 7 october and then a new semester break will begin. Wahh ,how time flying fast. In conclusion,i am so happy that i really enjoyed with this semester of study evendough i really busy with my busy schedule as a student.

  I start to understand my condition. I start to change my thought until today i can live as a normal human being out there.Thanks god,thanks a lot for all who had prayed for me.Thanks also to my psychotherapist who had give me a strong support.

  So as mention,final exam is around the corner. My last hope ,pray for me so that i can improve my CGPA.My promise to all of you to do my best. Of course,i will continue update and update my blog.To those who are still stuck with phobia,anxiety believe me move and move on. We can do this friends.Its almost 1.00 am at my place. With love from me,hope to see u again in my next posy. Bye peeps.

peak of semester begin.

     Well hello,i am back here.After 10 week of study,so there is almost 4 week left before we go to the final examination,so that's mean in it is called as a "peak of semester".Why i said like that is because,in the nearest time there is so many deadline for our assigment project.To all Muslims,i want to wish happy eid mubarak.Last week is a mid semester holiday.So it is almost one week i spent my time at home during the break.

     So after i going back to my college after the holiday finish last sunday,all my lecturers told that all all assigment must be submit from 2-3 weeks from now.So there is no more time to relax.But i always bear in my mind to not pressure myself.Just do what the best we can,as people said "work smart,not hard',i always remember this word.Yes of course,it is normal when there is so many assesment to be submit,of course the feeling of anxiety begin in your mind.But it is a normal reaction as human being,as what in biology called it as fight and flight response.So pressure,stress and others is so normal and common when you are in high institution and when you start to begin your career.But it is depend to us,on how we want to adapt and manage the stress.Stress is normal people.

   I currently still reading a book entitled spontenous happiness ,a bestseller books.So interesting,get it out from your nearest bookstore.I can guarentee,it will give many benificial information.Okey,i will have a midterm test for two days ,that is tommorow and on friday.I hope i can do the best to improve my cgpa.

  Next week is the election for student rep at my campus,so as mentioned before i had been choosen as one of student rep at my place.The purpose of the election is it will give an oppurtunity for student to choose their president and vice president,so start from today until next tuesday,i will busy for campaign process for the election.I hope all will went well and will finish this semester smoothlywithout any problem.bye will update later.With love.

meet after 2 month.

   Finally i meet back with my pyschotherapist at one of hospital in Kuala Lumpur. After a long time we did not meet each other,of course there are so many things that we discuss and talk together.I storied to him about my current condition and obviously i can see in his face that he is totally happy with my improvement in life habits and also my thought.I also was quite happy because i had shared everything that occured to me since past two months.

    I had told him that i was really enjoyed with my studies,there is no problem at all.I also told that i can adapt with my stress very well to be compared with previous semester and before the psychotherapy begin a few months ago.What he suggested to me is to continue with my blogging which is become my hobby right now and add another medical site links which can give benefits to the readers out there.He reminded me to always bring a medicine box in my pocket every time i going out,in case of emergency.

  And after about an hour ,he had told me that there is maybe 3 factors that contribute me to panic that is tired,psysciological factors and also absence of medication.So between this three factors,i will try to detect which one is the most strongest factors that causes me to develop such a conditions.He also suggested me to ask any local pharmacist to prescribed any alternative medicine so that i can stop the intake of medicine which is not suggested for a long time period of taken.And yeah i was quite interested to take omega 3 or kava kava.Any comments?it is was an effective way other than medicine?

  I also asked him an opinion about my decision to join a student rep council and he said of course i can and support strongly about my decision.Not all student want to join the council and it totally give me a spirit for me.And yeah,now is a fasting month and there is a few days left before eid,so i decided to start practice swimming after this.so thats all,bye.

 

dreams become reality

     Hello,assalamualaikum and have a nice day to all friends out there,i was quite happy right now because my dreams now had become reality because i was choosen as top 17 to become a student rep at my campus.Im totally speechless when i received a call from my college admin telling me that i am one of the choosen candidates to become part of student rep committee.Yeah and i have a big  question that arised in my mind,should i accept this position?Since i have several health problems,should i go ahead with this new responsbility?just want your suggestion.In my mind before going to the interview,i think by joining and become a student rep,i will learn something new,Meet with new people,learn what is the meaning of leadership.Thats why im joining this and i think i am quite ready to pick up this new responsbility.I hope u guys will keep supporting me.

     Okay,there is an election in the next two weeks,from this the students will decide who is their next president of student rep and i now is totally busy with my campaign to gain vote from them.Pray for me.I just want to share about my current health condition.I realize that without taking medication my panic become worsen.I really hated to take medicine for a long time.Anybody have an ideas how to settle down this problem without taking any medication?

    About my academics,there is totally no problem.Learning is really fun for me.Tomorrow i have one test and on thursday i will back to my hometown to celebrate eidulfitri and next week is a mid semester break.So i will spend this time to relax with my family,hang out with friends and have some relaxation before going back to my college.And maybe in this saturday,i will meet personally mith my psychologist at Kuala Lumpur.Ok thats all,have a nice day people.take care.

live.hope.patience.life.

                  Hello,and have a nice day.Today is saturday and have a nice weekend.I just want to share the facts that many people know i believe.It is about the intake of supplement.Since i have several anxiety problems,I was quite interested to take a omega 3 fish oil supplement.Many of my penpals had suggested me to take fish oil because it can reduce the anxiety and panic syndrome.I really interested to take it but there is an obstacle.The problem is i was currently still under medication and is there any side effects if i combine this two medicine and fish oil intake?anyone?

                Ortye,that is about omega 3.Now is the 7th week of my studies in this semester and there is about another 6 weeks to go before final examination.I just want to share that since past two weeks my sleeping pattern is very bad i can said.Sometimes i will overslept and sometimes i cant sleep.This is totally make my body feel tired and of courses it causes a massive migraines to me.And i will try to change this bad habists as soon as possible.Sometimes,i had a very bad dreams when i was sleeping.And the frequency of that bad dreams is increasing since last weeks.I really have no ideas about this.

                When talk about my panic,i just want to share that on last thursday ,i was on my way from my campus to my home.During driving on the highway suddenly panic came.My legs and my hands start to sweat and feel so insecure and i know panic is come.Immediately,i stop my car to the nearest r n r to exchange driver with my friends.It is totally dangerous.I dont know why,i had take my medication but it did not work.

              So about my studies,it is normal to have many assesment,datelines to meet.It is a routine as students.Just for next weeks,i have one interview session with editor of one of publishing company in Kuala lumpur,one test and one dateline to be meet.And guess what?i will go for an interview for the selection of new student council commitie in my campus.That is my dreams since i've entered the universities because i really want to learn how to be a leader from now.Even i have several health problems,i just take it as a challanges and a test for me.If i was selected then,i will do my best to ensure the charity of students at my place.Prof John Nash,Stephen Hawking is really inspired me.So thats all of my story for this week and will updated later.see u soon.

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan..welcome

   
           Hello there,it is almost one weeks i did not update my blogs .I just want to share that Ramadhan is coming.For Muslim,this month is a holy month for us because we are compulsory to fasting for a month before celebrate it on what we are called as Eidul-Fitri.I really happy,because this month is a great month to transform my life.I hope that i can change all my negative attitude and all bad behaviour and and throw it far away.Besides that,during Ramadhan Muslims are encourage to pray,recite a dua,recite the qoran that is our holy books and many more.Ramadhan actually in my views is an oppurtunity for people to unite and of course is a way to transform our lives.Just take an example,research had shown that many of  heavy smoker quit from smoking after this month ends and scientist also believe that by fasting it is very good for our health.I just want to share a facts that i've just read from a bokos that had been write by Meera Caster entitled 365 ways to be happy and one of the ways to achieve happiness is by fasting.Ok,thats all the story for Ramadhan.One more things that i want to share is that,i just finished reading a books by Rima Rudner.This books is called Choose to be Happy.I rated this book as a five star books because it really informative and can inspired people especially those who are depress.In Malaysia,this books is among top selling books in bookstore.By today,it is the 6th week of my 4th semester and there are a few weeks left before final examination.So thats mean,there is to many assesment,project to be done.But it is okay,it is really enjoyful.Ok thats all friends,happy monday.may happines belong to you and god bless you.

The relationship between generalized anxiety disorder and panic attacks

 Hey there,did you know that generalized anxiety disorder and panic attacks is among the categories of anxiety disorder?So as mention,i had both this symptomps.I was diagnosed suffering GAD in 2011.I still remembered in 2010 that i had a very important examanition that is Malaysian Education Certificate that is equavailent to O level .On that time,that is for the first time in my life i feel panic suddennly without any reasons,when i was in the exam hall,my hand start shaking and sweating.Then doctor confirmed that i have gad and the problem continue until today.Just now,i went for a dinner with my friends and i panic continue to attack me without any reasons.I didn't know why,on that time,i thinking so much.Many things that i think until i feel insecure,migraines ,my hands get sweat and i want start to feel like fainting.This problem became worsen since last year,and i was 100 percent get dependence to my medicine that is clonazepam and lexapro.I had tried so many things,from medicine to psychotheraphy. But all my efforts didn't worth..hmm so many challange that i must to face..hmm..it is almost 1.00 a.m in my country and tomorrow i have a morning classes.so that's all from me..bye..with love.see you soon.happy monday

what a bad day..

 
   What a bad day, that can i say for today.Guess what?ahh, i get a summonsed from Road Transport Department for breaking the rules of the road. Oh,what a sad day,it happened when im on my way for breakfast after i finished my today morning class.So i must pay Malaysian Ringgit (RM) 300 almost equvailent to 150 $  of US. But i accept this and take this as a lesson for me to follow the rules in the future.So it is almost 4th week i am on my new semester and am quite happy that my health conditions is getting better.But sometime panic attack me suddenly,but it was under control ,thanks to my medicine.I hope that this semester will go smoothly and better than previous and continue until end of my studies.Now i were in my campus,and this sunday i got a seminar and this weekend i must settle down my assigment because next week is the deadline.But i will going back home on monday,because on tuesday and wednesday is holiday in my states.So for muslims,ramadhan is almost around the corner.Happy ramadhan to all muslims,may Allah bless we all.And i hope that this Ramadhan will transform my life.For muslims,ramadhan is a holy month,in this ramadhan,we are compulsory for fasting for a month ,then after a month fasting,we will celebrate it .So in muslims,we believe that this month is a month for us to pray to Allah and pray as many as we can ...I hope this Ramadhan will be bless by Allah.Amin...So today is friday,its the end of my 4th week of studies.So far,this week is better than last week.So thats all,will update soon.take care people.

continue my journey back as student..enjoy

hello there..im feel quite happy because within last two days panic is not attacking me for a time being.Currently im so busy with my studies,with my assesment,going to classes,consult with lecturers and others.Its a normal things as student.So i quite enjoy my life as student..its a great experience by learning a new subject that u didn't ever know.I also feel quite happy because i had managed to adapt with stress to be compared with previous semester..I start to enjoy movie ,watch cinema,hangout with friend....its make my day so happy..yesterday i just watched a new relased movie that is "White House Down" its a great movie.. Last semester i was quite seriuos about my study..I push and push myself to study harder not smarter..So i totally change my mindset to just enjoy in study..Many academician  said "study smart,not study smart" so that what i am trying and i am always bear it on my mind.Currently its almost 1.30 am at my campus and tomorrow i have 3 classes .I hope that this situation will continue and keep continue..i still under medication for a timely basis.There is about 1 month i did not meet my psychologist Dr Khairi Rahman because i dont have a free time for meet him.so i hope will meet him  in the future..so thats all from me right now..take care people..with love.see u soon

hello..just want to share something..feeling like relapse come again.fear!

as mention before a new semester begin.And i feel so happy to meet my friend back in my campus.Going to lecture everyday,doing assesment is become my daily routine as a students.Currently i still under my medication that is lexapro and clonazepam.The medicine is proven to heal my anxiety and panic symptomps.I was so glad that my fear,anxiety and so on did not attack me as frequent as when i was in my previous semester.Last week i had seen my doctors ,and she told me since my symptoms had showed a positive signs to rocover,she told me to reduce my clonazepam intake from 2 tab per day,to 1 tablet ,and then to 1/2 tablet  and then stop slowly the intake of this medicine..So i follow her order ,but after 2-3 days without clonezepam ,my panic continue to attack me back.Im in phobia right now,but whenever the panic came,i still can control myself thanks to several self help books which had give many tips to me to deal with such situation.But what is going on my mind,until when this problem will continue to attack me?haa...And i had identified that my main trigger factors that caused me to panic is when i was in crowded places or wide places suck as shopping mall,airport terminal...I still remember when i was on holiday in Hong Kong last 3 weeks,i was attack with panic when i walked through the airport terminal..The terminal was so wide and long when i walked across it to reach my airplane.And justnow,i just went to my local supermarket and it also was a wide places,again panic attack me.What was make me happy,is that this semester i can really handle with stress to compare with previous semester.Maybe i should credited to my pyschotherapist,to my classmates,,to my parents,friends,family members,to my fellow bloggers and also to several self help book writers for give me advise ,support and tips on how to get deal with stressor events.But what is bothering me now is my fear to the wide places.I really have no ideas about this,i had tried many things from medicine,pyschotherapy,counslelling but it come to attack and attack..

new semester and follow up with my doctors

Helloooooo friends.How are you?As mention before the new semester begin last week.And i totallt do not have enough time to update my blog.For the beggining of the semester,what i can say is awesome.I meet with my old classmates.And this semester i was appointed as a class leader .There is many works that i need to do that is assesment.Its normal as college student to to our assigment that was assigned by our lecturers.This semester,all my lecturers are very rigid and so strict.But i take it as challange for me to study harder.Yeah,there is no more panic,anxiety!!that what can i tell.The condition is totally different from previous semester where my panic always come attack me without any reasons.I so happy right now.And yesterday i just went for a check up with my doctor at one of hospitals in kuala lumpur and he asked me to continue with my medications and asked me to reduce my rivotril dosage because it make me feel so sleepy.And what makes me happy is one of the doctor there will take me as a patient for cbt therapy session for free of charge..yeah.So i got a medical leave for two days..and now i want to go back to my campus because tomorrow morning ,i have economic classes and this weekend i need to do an assigment for politics subjects because the deadline is on monday.so pray for me,that is my hope from all of you.thank you..with love!!!

new hope,new journey,new semester.Pray for me

During last semester i had a difficulties to overcome with my fear,panic,anxiety and so on..It totally effect my academics and my life quality.Even during the classes ,my panic attack me without any reason.Fortunately,semester break begin and i feel it is is the most best time for me to meet someone who can help me.Then on last april,i went to see a doctor and had undergone several psychotherapist session with clinical psychologist.And i am now under medication.After 2 month on holiday,the new semester will begin tomorrow.I quite confidence that my conditions is quite good enough and i strongly believe that anxiety,and so on will not attack me again..I had enjoyed my semester holiday with many activities.Meeting with friends,playing sports,watching cinema,reading,karaoke,and of course going for a short vacation last week to Hong Kong.And my life as student will continue tomorrow.I have no option.to be success in future,i must study hard.My journey is still far away and i am still young.There is another 3 years of average for me to get my first class of degree.I really hope that this semester and the next day ,i will face it smoothly..Its is challange for me.Now i will leaving home and going back to my campus..Going for classes will be my daily routine after this.My hope is that all of you will pray for me,i really want to make my parents proud.My ambition i want my parents too see me during my graduation day.As son,that is only i can pay and that is the only way to make them proud of me.To be a better person in future..Last word,thanks to all who have been supporting me during my treatment especially to my doctor,dr aida and of course dr khairi rahman.I also want to thanks to my new friends +Nelly N.  who have helping me to give ideas on what to share on my blog and also to +Sheri Jacobson ,a psychologist from harley theraphy based on london.Even with didint meet face to face,but all of them help me a lot..Yeah new journey,new breath and new hope begin..wish me luck.love u all from bottom of my heart.Of course will update again.Till we see again friends.take care and have a nice day.god bless you

what a tiring day!a new semester will begin soon.anxiety start.Anyone?need advise and support

The semester break will end soon and new semester will begin next week..Ahh,i am so lazy  to going back to my campus.Today is most tiring day ever,after 2 month on semester break i visit to my campus for a while.My purpose to going there is to get an entry pass for my vehicle to enter the campus area and also to visit my new rental house.I didn't know why,my feelings start to changed when i entered my campus area.Something that i cant described and so subjective.Maybe i am not fully prepared to enter the new semester.Last semester is the most worse semester ever,i always develop panic attacks,i cant adapt with stress,i really cant handle with it..ahh.People call me as a careless person .My cgpa also drop .Then when the holiday begin,i fell quite happy.No more classes,no more assesment,no more test and others..Ahh .The feelings are so ,i cant describe it.So,as mention before ,i had gone for a psychotherapy session and also meet a psychatrist and my condition  since past 2 month is quite good.I am feeling so happy now.But i quite afraid then anxiety,panic will attack me again when the semester open soon..My biggest hope is that the medicine that doctor prescribed me will reduce my anxiety and fear levels..Amin.I didn't know why.This feelings always came to me when the new semester will coming.I hope also this semester will better than the past.I want to start a new lifestyle,think positive.I will try and try and try.I would not stop from trying.ever.My journey is still far away and i am still young..I know i must face all this challange .Ok thats all,i hope somebody will give support and advise to me.Its almost 1.00 am in my places and bye.till we meet again in my next post and also thanks for mental health bloglist for listng my blog in their sites.I feel so happy to hear that...Take care people.This life is ours.enjoy your day.

Hong Kong and China Tour 2013.

I just back from a short visit to Hong Kong and The city of Shenzhen China.I am feel so happy with this vacation.I departed to Hong Kong on last 26 mei from Kuala Lumpur International Airport.During the first day,our tour guide bring us to visit the famous wax museum maddame taussaueds.Wow,im feel so excited where my dream to meet many popular icons become true even it is fake..I manage to take pictures with many celebrities,politician,sport icons and many more...so here are the pictures

                                                 
Haha above my picture with the royal familes..On the the next day,i and my travel groupmates spent the wholeday at the Hong Kong Disneyland Park.In asia,there is only two disneyland here,one at Hong Kong and the other one at Japan....But i think this park is  more suitable for children under 12 years old.Ive been to Universal Studios at Singapore and Universal Studios is better than disneyland.Then on the 3rd day,we continue our journey to the city of Shenzhen ,China.The 4th largest city in China after Beijing,Shanghai and Guangzhou.It is a great city..The tour guide brought us to the famous Louhu Mall,where we can find anything from gadgets,shoes at a reasonable price.Then on 4rth day,we continue to discover Shenzhen..and went to the Wonder of the world park..I believe many people didnt ever heard about this theme park.This park is similar with a legoland concept.Inside the park,there are many model of famous buldings all over the world including the great paris eifeel tower,the pyramid giza and even the pentagon and the white house bulding.

Finally after 5 days there,we went back to Kuala Lumpur and fly back with Malaysia Airlines.What can i described is it is a very nice place and i will never forget this moment of vacations.But in China the government block their citizens from using the social media including twitter,facebook and so on.I dont know why and have no ideas about this.But what i want to say,i am feel so happy right now.Bye.will update again.

my medicine side effects..need help

Currently,i was prescribed by doctor with lexapro  10 mg and klonopin (clonazepam) 0.5 mg.What it makes me happy is that its totally work for treating my anxiety and panic disorder.There is no more fear,no more worry,no more attacks.But what it makes me uncomfartable is the medication is totally make me always feel so sleepy..I always overslept and i take about 12-13 hours sleep daily.It totally make my parents worried about my conditions now.Its totally confusing me now whether to continue the medication or to stop it.If i stop it,panic and anxiety maybe attack me again..and i feel quite worried if i develop relapse.I totally under dilemma now.The medication has both prons and cons..

lets go for cinema!another ways to reduce anxiety

I was quite happy because currently i am on my semester break and  can do anything what i want because i am totally free.Every time i was on my semester holiday or anytime when im free ,watching movies at cinema with my buddies is become my hobby..Seriously,when u go watch movies with your friends,you will totally feel happy and can relieve your stress for a short time.Just now,i just watch Star Trek into darkness,a science fiction thriller movie.Its quite interesting and i rated it as a 5 star movie.Beside that,last month i also had watched iron man 3 and olympus has fallen..Even for certain people,going to cinemas is sometime maybe expensive but this activity seriouslly is one way to relieve your anxiety..

Blog for Mental Health 2013

I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project.

I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others.


By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health.


I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.

If you take the pledge please take the following steps....

1.) Take the pledge by copying and pasting the following into a post featuring “Blog for Mental Health 2013″.

I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project.  I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others.  By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health.  I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.

2.) Link back to the person who pledged you.

that is +Jennifer Clark  do visit her blog.check it out

3.) Write a short biography of your mental health, and what this means to you.

Im 19..in 2009 and 2010,i was still in high school.at that time,i awalys feel depressed,always skipped classes and always overthinnking.After finishing my high school in 2011,doctor diagnosed with me with generalized anxiety disorder and severe panic attacks complications.The condition worsen when im entered and futher my studies in universities.But now,the condition is under contol because im under medication.So i decided to make a blog,to share my experience and in the sametimes to create awareness to people outside there.

4.) Pledge five others, and be sure to let them know!

a)+Nelly Neurotic 

b) +D.J. Haswell 

c) +Jennifer Clark 

last word lets we contol the conditions,not the condtions control us.

lets be active!one way to reduce anxiety

Did you know that stress is among the main factors that causes anxiety and panic attacks?yes,i believe many people didn't know about this facts.Stress,stress and stress..all people must face it.its a normal in our life.But it depend on how we want to overcome it.Currently i am on my semester break for almost 2 month.So i take this advantages for me to practice a healthy lifestyle.When i were in college,i am too busy with classes,assigments,test and others.Then i take this semester brake to as an opportunity for me to start an active lifestyle and play sports.Seriously,when in college ,i didn't have a times to play sports or practice active lifestyle.I am 100 percent concentrated on my study.After i had undergone several psychotherapy session ,psychologist dr khairi rahman advise me to change my life habit and start to play sport for at least 45 minutes a day.At the beggining,its seem like impossible for me to play a sport because i have no interest on it.Fortunately,my bestfriends always invited me to play a sports.Badminton and futsal (indoor soccer) are become their favourite games.Then i join them for several times.After several times joining them,i feel that my anxiety is no more attack me.Im feel so happy after play a sport.In fact,research had shown that by practicing a healthy lifestyle,it can reduce your anxiety levels.Seriously guys,lets be active and practice a healthy lifestyle..It will give many benefits.Believe me.I had tried it,how about you?have a nice day people.

im so interested to study psychology!

Currently i am studying at universities and taking a diploma in communication and media studies.Since im have a mental health problem,and had undergone several treatment.Im begin to feel that im so interested to futher my studies soon in psychology field.I think this field is quite interesting..I hope my dream will become true one days.I want to be a psychologist consultant,who can help and guide people who have same conditions with me.In my country,its so difficult to find a consultant psychologist because this field is still new in my country.So anybody can share what i will study if im taking this course?

attention deficit disorder and way to overcome it

In 2009,i still studying at high school.During that times,i have difficulties to concentrate in classes,difficulties to study when exam is around the corner.I still remember my teacher called me as a 'blurred' student.During that time im feel so down and depressed.As mention before,i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder.So after i graduated from my high school,Psychatrist said that i have a GAD and also might have a symptoms of Attention Deficit disorder..I start with my medication.Instead of that,i ask the doctor how to handle with mt add problem,then he list down several ways to overcome it.ADD may resulted and causes by a stressful events.During my highschool,i take a pure science course which is really tough for me.Doctor believe stress during school is causes me to develop GAD and ADD.So this is several ways to overcome add ,add can be overcome by doing a crossword puzzle or activity that is similar to it such as sudoku.It will stimulate ur brain ,hence will help you to overcome this problem.I had tried it,and it are totally effective.Now i study at one of public universities in malaysia and i quite happy because this problem is not bothering my life anymore.But then,as mention before,i still struggling to overcome My GAD and panic attacks problem...and i hope my life will change one day and can live like a normal people outside there.

They are ready for help you! Befrienders

"When the world shut you out,we are still open",that is the tagline for befrienders,the non profit organization that is estabalished aimed to help people who have a personal problem out there .Do  feel angry?do you need a emotional support?.Befrienders are ready to listen and help you whether through the phone call or by make an appoiment with them.In conclusion,befrienders are international NGO that help people worldwide who are tempted to suicide or despair.Just mke a call to them,and just share your problem.They are ready to listen to your problems.The phone calls are totally 100 percent confidential.I believe many people didnt know or even heard about this organisation.The statistics that is provided by WHO revealed that the percentage of people who want to keep suicide is increased by year to year.So i believe by making a calls to befrienders they are ready to listen and help you...All of their volunteers are well trained.So if you need  help just visit http://www.befrienders.org/...You are not alone.believe me.!!have a nice day people

Karaoke ,one way to reduce stress!

Stress is normal for everybody.Every people will facing a stressfull events in their life.It all depend on us on how to deal with stress.All people deal it with a different ways.My ways to reduce stress is by having a karaoke.If im free,i always go for singing with my bestfriends.This activity is absolutely one of activity that can reduce our stress.Singing help us to reduce our pressure.Beside that,one research had shown that singing will increase our self esteem.Even it is expensive,but it a totally a good way to relieve stress.Going for karaoke is not for showing whether we are good enough in singing or not,but when going to a karaoke just affirm in yourself,i just want to have fun and enjoy singing a song of my favourite artiste.Beside that,this activity can improve and will strengthen our relationship with your friend and also family members.Believe me,singing is one of the effective ways to eliminate stress..Oryte..happy sunday people.

what a perfect day!

What a perfect day i can described for today.There is no more panic,no more fear,no more anxiety.Before this,i always became panic when i go to a crowded places etc shopping mall,overthinking and others.But the conditions had changed.Currently i am on my semester break,during last semester ,anxiety always came and attack me..I  always feeling fear for an irriational reasons.My friends always described me as a careless person..Then on early of last month,my semester break begin and i realized i need to treat my anxiety as soon as possible.I want to live like a normal person out there.So i began to see a doctor,undergone a psychotherapist and until today my conditions is back to normal.Im sometime cant believe that anxiety do not attack me anymore.Since i began a tratment,i can go anywhere ,socialize with anyone without a panic attacks.Today is saturday and just now,i just had a dinner with my former schoolmates during high school.I really happy to see and having a chit chat with them.My Psychologist also are show his concern towards me.He always communicate with me through a Whatsapp application and as a muslim ,he reminded me to perform our solah.He always remind me that this is a test that god gave to me...My friends and family also are really supporting me..And on next 8th june i will join a depression and anxiety support group meeting.I really excited to meet a new people and friends there..Then,on 10th of june,the new semester are open and i will return back to my campus....bye..have a nice day

The relationship between anxiety and migraines

On 2011,i start begin with my treatment on anxiety disorder.One year later,i begin to skip my treatment because i think im feel good enough.Problem came when i was sent to a military style camp.At that time,our coach didnt allowed us to sleep for almost two days.Its really a tough training.During the second day of training,i start to feel something is wrong is me.Headches,dizzines,vertigo ,feeling like to faint .Alll of this symptoms came to me during that day.I think it is a normal health problem.But it continuosly attack me....I went to see a doctor and he told me that it is a normal headches and give me a panadol and painkiller..This problem continue to disturbed me for a month.One day,my dad bring me to consult Dr Abu Salim Idris,a well known neurologist based in Kuala Lumpur.He ask me to do several medical test to know that is the causes of my problem.I had undergone several test including blood test,eeg screening test and also CT scan.But the result showed nothing.All is normal,but my eeg screening test showed there is something wrong with my brain.Doctor said that i am overthinking.I told him that i have anxiety.No wonder,he said i have a anxiety neurosis and brain stem migraines.So he prescribed me with a antivertigo,antihistamine,xanax and painkiller..So in conclusion anxiety can causes many health problems.Anxiety management is really important for those who suffered it..Its easy start to change your lifestyle,practice active lifestyle,manage your stress properly,drink a lot of water....

He won a nobel prize award-schizophrenia patient

Prof John Nash,is a well known mathematician who worked at Princeton University.He had won a nobel prize award for his many contributions.He is well known because he created many new theories in mathematics.Beside that,Nash had struggled a mental disorder that is shizophernia.He often develop a symtomps of that disease including hallucinations.He also had being admitted to mental hospitals for several times.Instead of his problem,in 1994 Nash was awarded with Nobel Memorial Prize in Economic as a result of his game theory as a result of princeton graduate student.In addition,Nash had become a subject for a hollywood movie entitled A Beautiful Mind that storied about john nash real life.My psychologist had said to me,if he can success,u also can.Nash is really inspiring me..Salute u sir!

yeay..i had found it

Yesterday,i had a conversation with sheri jacobson,a psychotherapist at harley therapist center based in london,united kingdom.She suggest me that one of the way to reduce anxiety is to find a support groups nearby at my home.So i begin to search through the internet and it really make me excited when i found one support group call Malaysia Mental Health Assosication  (MMHA) based in Petaling Jaya,Malaysia.So i make a call and spoke with one of officer there. Yeay and im feel really excited when she are welcoming me to join their Depression and anxiety support group.This group will meet once a month and allow us to share our experience with others who are also have a same conditions with us.So i will join them in their next meeting.So for those who suffer any pathological disorder ,from anxiety disorder,schizophernia,mood disorder,and etc you maybe can contact MMHA at this link http://www.mentalhealth.org.my/contact/.They are also offering a rehabilatation programme which will be conducted by a mental health rehabilatation officer for their clients.I believe,beside medication and psychotherapist,this process is one of the effective way to treat anxiety.For those who are stayed outside malaysia,and need a help you maybe can try to contact saneline,an organisation who can help internationally  by email and phone..this is the site http://www.sane.org.uk/what_we_do/support/helpline/...So common people ,lets move forward...have a nice day!

journal writing can reduce anxiety!trust me.

I've undergone a psychotherapy session for several times with one of consultant psychologist at pantai hospital kuala lumpur. During the session,he suggest me to start with a journal writing.So i begin to start writing om my personal journal.Seriouslly this activity can relieve anxiety.By doing this,it will help you to read what is on your mind,understand your current thought.Its really good for your cognitive.By writing a journal,you can see what kind of thought are swirling on your head.Get a journal now,purchase it at your local bookstore and just write in a small notebook.Its so easy and simple.When you want start to write,just write all that goes on your mind..Find a quite places to write,some people think that writing a night is a most suitable times to write...oryte..see u soon and happy writing

it attacks me again

im still studying at one of famous universities at malaysia and currently i was on my semester break.After one year skip my treatment,last two weeks,i continue back wit my medication and had undergone a psychotherapy session.For the first of the last two weeks,my conditions is back to normal.no anxiety,no panic.But just now,i just went for a hangout with my old schoolmates and we have our dinner at the restaurant and suddenly im feeling vertigo.My heart start pounding,and im feeling like im dying.Immediately i affirm in my mind,that nothing can harm me .And finally my panic attack relieve after a few minutes.I weent back home and immediately take my transquelizers and the ssri (lexapro)..I had documented all that happened just now on my personal journal.Actually many people didn't know that writing a journal can relieve your anxiety..In fact the idea for me to write a journal came from my my personal psychologist ..I will share the relationship between journal writing and anxiety in my next post soon.Just now,i just had a email conversation with sheri jacobson,she is a well known psychotherapist who work at Harley Theraphy,London.She is very nice person and gave me some advice.Thanks Harley.Orite,to be continue.Have a nice day people..

breathing techniques and progressive muscle relaxation!! u can practice it

Every time when i consult the doctor,there always suggest me to do a breathing techniques and progressive muscle relaxation.Many people didn't know about this.At the beggining of time,i also didn't understand what is breathing techniques and progressive muscle relaxation or pmr in short.So i start to search through the internet to know more about this techniques.It is simple and easy.Since stress are among the factors of anxiety,so researcher believe this two techniques can reduce our anxiety.Breathing techiques are often being teach by a doctor for a patient who have a panic disorder.When there were attack by a panic attack,this breathing techniques are the fastest way to relieve the panic instead of taking the medications.Here are the simple steps to practice a breathing techniques:

1)Sit comfortably at a quite places.Put one hand on your chest,and other on your stomach

2)Breath in slowly through your nose..and hold it..count until 7.The hand on your stomach should rise

3)exhale slowly through your mouth

4)Continue this process until you feel relaxed..its easy ..

Next is progressive muscle relaxation.Maybe this video can help u guys out there 

my journey to overcome anxiety part 2:psychotherapy

I was diagnosed with anxiety neurosis last 2 years.During that time,doctor give me a medications.At the same time,i had undergone a psychotherapy session with a clinical psychologist at one of public hospital in kuala lumpur.At that time i really dont understand what anxiety is then i decided to skip all the treatment because i think that i am a normal person without any health problem.Then as mention before,problem start to come when i futher my studies.I  can adapt with my stress and my anxiety become worse.After one year ,i went back to consult a doctor and started back with my medications...I also realized that medication is not enough for me.Than i decided to find a clinical psychologist and i started to search through internet.After searching,than i found one sites that provide a list about the directory to find a psychologist.Then i decided to meet Dr Khairi Rahman,a consultant psychologist at Pantai Hospital Kuala Lumpur.He is  really a nice person.We had meet about three times.During the consultation,he give many advise to me..Thanks to him.Until today,my condition is improve from day to day.For those who are stay in Malaysia and want to consult a  psychologist this site is quite helpful..trust me  http://www.disabilitymalaysia.com/index2.php?type=list&table=specialist&detail=Psychologists+%28Brain+Function+Specialists%29 ..last word from me,for those who had a similar problem with me,i want to say let we control the conditions,dont let the conditions control us.Remember that,this is only a test that god give to us.We must be patient,stay strong and continue this life.See u again..have a nice day

my journey to overcome anxiety part 1:medication

I still remember ,i was diagnosed with anxiety neurosis in 2011 by a medical officer at one of public hospital at Kuala Lumpur.Then he precribed me with An antidepressant lexapro escitalopram 10 mg and also lorezapan (Ativan) 0.5 mg.Then i skip my treatment because i feel there is no need to take my medication and also that time i didnt understand what is anxiety disorder because at that time i still young.Then one year later as told before,problem come.I cant adapt with my stress,i always overthinking,getting fear in rowded places.After one year,i went back to see my doctor and until today i continue back my medication and im feel glad that my conditions are back to normal.Basically,there are two types of therapies for anxiety patient that is medication and also cognitive behaviour therapy (cbt) that is conducted by a medical expert.Now i want to share u a little bit about anti anxiety medication.There are several types of medications to treat anxiety:

1)Antidepressant that is Tricylic,MAO inhibitors,Selective Serotonon Reuptake inhibator (ssri)

2)Benzodiazepines or better known as transquilizer .It seem like a perfect medication to treat anxiety because it work rapidly,often quelling a symptomps within 15 to 20 minutes.There are many types of Benzodiazepines including ativan,klonopin,xanax and valium.

3)Miscallaneous transquilizers,there are two types that are buspar and ativan.

Make sure u consult ur doctor first before taking any of medication above for a security reasons.I will share a information about psychotherapy or cbt in my next post..bye2..have a nice day.

 

so what is the trigger factors of anxiety?

Enviromental or external factors,Medical factors,Subtance use and abuse,genetics,brain chemistry is said to be the trigger factors of anxiety.

1)Enviromental and external factors

    There are certain type of enviromental factors that had been known to be the causes of anxiety it include:
     a) Stress in personal relationship,marriage,friendship..etc
     b) stress at work
     c)stress at school
     d)stress about finances and money

2)Medical factors
     
     some medical factors that causes anxiety is:
 
     a)stress from a serious medical ilness
     b)side effect of medication
     c)symptoms of medical illness

3)Genetics

   A family history may increase the likehood for someone to develop an anxiety.

4)Brain chemisty

   abnormal level of neurotransmitter can causes anxiety.Individuals with anxiety sometimes is believe to have a low levels of benzodiazapine.A low level of serotonin are also maybe can causes the anxiety.

The facts that many people didnt know

The purpose why im creating this blog is to create an awareness about anxiety disorder and also in a sametime to share my true own story with others.Here i believe that many people in the world still didnt understand what anxiety is.Basically there are many types of anxiety that is Generalized Anxiety disorder,panic disorder,post traumatic stress disorder,agoraphobia,specific phobia,obsessive compulsive disorder.Let begin with GAD or Generalized Anxiety disorder first,some people refer gad as the common cold of anxiety.You may have Gad if your anxiety has shown up almost everyday for the last six month.You try to stop worrying but u just cant,and frequently experience a number of the following problem

1. Feel Resless,often irritable,on edge,fidgety 
2. You get tired easily
3. Your muscle tense up
4. diffulculty concentrating,falling asleep or staying asleep

Next is panic disorder .You might develop a panic disorder if your develop such symptoms below:

• Pounding heartbeat
• perspiring
• vertigo
• discomfort in chest
• stomach nausea or upset

Professionals generally agree that in order to have panic disorder,panic attacks must occur more than once.People with panic disorder worry about when the next one will come and whether they will lose control and embrass themselves.Some around half who have panic disorder have an accompanying problem that is Agoraphobia.Individual who lived with this disease live in terror of being trapped.In conclusion,they are worry about having a panic attack again.You may have agoraphobia if

• Worry about somewhere where cant get out or cant get help in case something bad happens,like a panic attacks.
• Tremble over everyday things like leaving home,being in large groups of peopleor travel
• Avoid places that you fear so much that takes over your life

Thats all for today.and i will updated soon about the trigger factors,the treatment,the medication and also how to heal anxiety without medication.have a nice day.

The Journey continue

When i was in my semester 3 of study,i was equipped with Xanax 0.5 mg as a medication to relieve my anxiety.At the beggining of the semester,all it seem ok until the fourth week of study then the condition going worsen again where im always want to feel faint,fear being in publics,and even i thought that im dying.Fortunately,i have an excellent family who always give me support for me to overcome this disease.At this time,i feel like i cant adapt with a stressor event,i always overthinking,fear when go to crowded places like shopping malls,and also feeling of sudden fear without any reasons.My medication seem not functioning and im decided to meet a speacalist at UKM Medical center,Kuala Lumpur and the doctor switch the xanax into an SSRI lexapro escitalopram and clonazepam of 0.5 mg.In fact,i also went to undergone cognitive behavior theraphy with one of the physcologist expert at Pantai Hospital Kuala Lumpur.Now i still under treatment and recognized that this disorder is totally a problem that i must controlled before it go worsen.

The begining of the chapter

Hello everyone,for the beginning i just want to share to all of u a little bit of story about my story. Im 19 and studying at one of public university in my country,Malaysia.I was born in 1993 and had my primary and secondry school at Kuala Lumpur. In earlier of 2011,I was diagnosed by a doctor that i had suffered Generalized Anxiety Disorder or in short GAD. During that time i was only 17 years old and i totally didt understand what GAD is. So from that time,i didn't care so much about the advise from the doctor and didn't take the medications because i really dont understand about this pathological disorder.In mid of 2011,I was offered to futher studies at one of the famous public universities here.On that time,i dont take any medications and continue my treatment with the doctor.The condition is normal at the beggining of my study.On June of 2012,I was in second semester of my study.And the condition start to change my whole life.At the end of the semester,I was sent to go for camping for the extra cocuricculum activity.The training is quite tough which is our training is like army style training.We didnt sleep for almost two days.At that time,for the first time in my life i start to feel fainting,then the coach there told me to take a rest .After went back from the camping,the situation is normal until when i taking my final examination and then the same feelings came again.During answering the exam,my hand start to shaking and sweating,my heart start pounding.I dont have any ideas why it happened.I went to see a doctor and he tell me that i maybe cant adapt with stress and just gave me a panadol to me.Then it is semester break,i went back home.I still remember during the holiday when i go to public and crowded places ,i feel i want to faint and start to feel headchhe.Again.,doctor told me that it is only a minor problem and give me a Panadol.After a couple of week,the conditons seem going worsen and my dad picked me up to consult with one of consultant neurologist at Kuala Lumpur.I had gone several test including ct scan,eeg screening,and also the blood test.Then the doctor told me that there is something wrong with my brain readings and said that i have an anxiety neurosis.Omg,i think that it had gone from my life but it attack me again.So doctor prescribed me with a Xanax of 0.5 mg and i entered my 3rd semester of study.For the first and second week of astudy there is no problem.and then to be continued..........